Its just another lie you said.

i dont know what you're hiding from me but i hope you'll decide to tell me someday. i just cant sleep. ok now you, yes you. why must you come and be nice then the next day and day after next day heck care me. h.i.s.t.o.r.y repeating. you're always like that. you told me you'll reply asap unless you're busy or you die. you're tired for a whole of 24 hours. you want, you tell me straight. straight not thru my friends. i hate it when they are involved because i dont want to fall out with them. is this just another plan to make me feel pain 100x more. prolly. you want you just tell me straight. i should believe nothing. hear nothing. feel nothing. say nothing. do nothing. this way i wont get hurt anymore. the shield must turn from paper to cardboard then to metal. it will , it will.