if only all these would last

if only all these were real

if only all troubles could be gone.

if only i dont screw up things at training

if only i dont get affected.

if only i could feel nothing.

if only i could see no expression ppl's face.

if only i am perfect

if only i am not a noob

if only i dont need encouragement

if only i dont need help

how many more "if only" do i have?

well, that depends in how strong am i. i know i'm not, and i'll never be. i just cant be strong. i dont wanna get hurt by words either. nobody wants. nobody.

if only excuses dont exist to cover up the truth. it would be much better, people wont get sad and everything.

{i hope its gonna be fine}