The good or bad times, we've been through it all.

i'm sooooo tired that i slept at 9pm last night and woke at 9.36 this morning to eat. i'm sick of seeing biased ppl(not teachers&coaches) selfish ppl too. and i'm like damnnnnnnn sick of your lies and everything. i just realised that the only person that you can count on and trust is yourself, no one else no one. i'm not angry or blaming them or smth its just that i'm disappointed in myself, no one elso. no one. i kept my silence during debrief yesterday because i'm afraid that i would actually lose control and then next thing i know, tears. i struggled to keep it in. i struggled. yes, i won, so f off tears. i still cant find the problem in me, i d k y. idky. i know i have a problem, but i dont what is it. idk. idk, and i never knew. cos i didnt bother to find it until now. i will find it. i will.