people change, clouds fade, storms appear one after another.

life's been.........................so far.....i dont know what to describe it with. i just need somewhere to type out or say out...yeah i need that.
i dont want to be the asshole in which some of my classmates call me, neither do i want to be one of the dogs or spongedog. please tell me that ngee ann dont invade peopls's privacy in their confiscated ipod touch. so far, i know i can still take it but i dont know how long more i will be able to hold and take it in. i like this class. but i dont like the way the blow away all my clouds just in a day or a lesson. and i am left alone to draw my own clouds in stormy days all by myself. but thankfully, there are still some nice classmates that offered to help me to draw and colour my clouds. i really dont know how long more they can help me. i really dont know. people leave, dont they?

i need a miracle. history repeated. its not easy. this road is full of holes that will make you fall and cry. but all i have to do is to try and blur my vision so that i dont need to see anything that will make me fall and cry ever again. its not easy but im going to try. i want to become a honest person. i want to change. i need to. for the past, i am just another coward that lies just to keep friends. now i just want to change and see if my friends will stay. things dont last. do they? i know im a ugly bitch, a noisy bitch. and lousy friend and chairperson. but who would actually doubt a teacher's words? you didnt even bother to explain to me. all you said was "return me my itouch." nevermind all that. its not important now. all i want to say to you all who have deceided to kick me out of your life:

thanks for being my friend, being there for me and helping me in a way or another. and thanks for letting me know im a bitch. and a ugly and noisy one too. you all have been a great friend, classmate and schoolmate. without you guys, i'll never get to experience many things like crying in school, learning the importance of friends and many other stuffs.