today (you wouldn't want to read it )

SOMETIMES I REALLY WONDER WHY CAN I JUST DIE OR FIND A DARK PLACE TO HIDE MYSELF . WHY CAN'T I SOMEHOW MAKE MYSELF DISSAPPEAR AS AND WHEN I LIKE ? WHY CAN'T I GET RID OF MY OLD HABIT ? WHY CAN'T I DO THINGS ON MY OWN ? WHY CAN'T I SPEND EVERY RECESS ALONE ? WHY CAN'T I STOP TALKING IN SCHOOL ? WHY CAN 'T I BE MORE QUIET ? WHY CAN'T I BE MORE INDEPENDENT ? WHY CAN'T I BE LESS KAYPOH ?