im sorry. i love all of you.

hey. i have a friend i used to hate alot. and her name is karyl. i dont hate her now. i really dont. its just that sometimes, things happen and hurt me. i am not angry. but i just wna know if apologies are meant to be sincere or not. i just want to have friends. a group, a group that i dont have to try to blend in. i just want to have friends that wont hurt me. i am not saying that my friends now are. but maybe the way we think is different. karyl, a nice girl. a very nice one, friendly, out-going. i seldom talk to her but if im not ok, she's always the best listener.<3 pingswen, i might call her ahlian all the time and i tell you i dont like her but i like her. shes nice and caring.also the most unreasonable one.<3 she's one who stands up immediatley if i were to get bullied. she's nice. perlyn. the nicest and most forgiving person i've ever known. no matter how much people make her pissed, she'll still smile and say "its alright" and keep everything to herself. <3 huiwen. the optimistic and kind and cheerful one. the one who never gets bored talking about retarded stuffs with me. the one who always tell people to spike balls at her. the crazy one. <3 kahwai. from a girl who has a not very good attitude to someone, or maybe, a player who has good attitude, that everyone likes. also, she is a very guailan #11. the friend of guailan #13. carol. the dumbest woman that has ever done the dumbest thing in the world with me and thats playing.<3 wenxin. the craziest here. but we all love her because she never fails to not be the craziest one during training. cheryl-ann the quiet one. heh. nice too. and the one that always gets disappointed because i missed 39.<3 wenqi, the r4 one! random stuff and random wenqi. the random-est one. <3

hi. i've been slacking and not studying for the past few days. And common test is approaching. i guess i'm gna flunk all the papers. i will be studying with friends later. hope it will be productive.
you've changed back to your old self again, i guess thats pretty normal right? ever since you improved. oh well.....i do hope that the debrief yst helped. truthfully speaking ttm, i hate talking ttm during training. and other than that, i guess training was fine. i need to improve. i'll be in danger. damn. its not that i cannot take comments, its just that i can take comments from people who dont know why i did certain things in a certain way. stressssssssssed.