truth.

is it so hard for you to even tell me the truth?! i find it rly amazing when you can tell me a lie and i stupidly believe it. damn this world. full of LIES!!!!!! i want to kill everyone around me so i dont need to think so much! damn you people. i want to KILL YOU ALL. but i cant. damn hide and keep everytihng. stop lying lah.

is it rly hard to rmb what you said?! is it that hard?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! you dont even bother right?! nvm. i shouldnt be saying sorry.

you stop shouting at me can anot huh. you are always humilating me infront of alot of people. i tell you once i start to be independent you eat my shit. you eat my shit. i got ask you train me ah?! you throw it so low i fall and injure myself you still not happy what you want sia. i AM NOT a very forgiving person ok.

IDK IDK IDK IDK!!!!!!! why is this world so complicated?!?!!??!!?

grrh. screw all the big fat liars in this world ok. screw them.

pls stop saying things that wont even happen ok.

you. i had enough of you liao. dont shout at me again. i might just shout back at you for shouting at me so many times in public. i tell you I HAD ENOUGHT OF ALL YOUR SHIT!!!!!!!! arrgh. you think you big i scared ah huh?! sorry ah age doesnt come in here.

but the eldridge thing is rly making me doubt my way of thinking and impression.

WHO TO BELIEVE?!?!!?!?!!?!!?!?!!?!?

ha loser huibing.

just so you know this feeling is like no other.

heh. many things happened. as usual im the loser lah.
stop helping me. stop. if you dont want things to get complicated.

and i hate you. i rly hate you. idk what i can do now to relieve the stresssssssss.
i hate you at times and i dont hate you at times. idk why either.
i almost shouted at you today. lucky the 'clearer headed' side of me stopped myself form shouting at you.
its kinda hard to ignore you, stay as best buddies. its really hard. idk how i am going to do it.
but i guess i'll just have to fight the feeling inside me. Ha.....

pingswen is faking a smile. so i shld probably learn from her. heh.

jealousy kills ok, it really kills.

i cant believe how many 'yes, okay' i said to you and how many 'no no no' i said to the friend that was there everytime i was sad. i just cant believe. i need to learn how to say 'no' to you.

i guess you prolly treated a friend, that dont always say 'yes' to you like your best friend and me, friend? it really hurt me alot. and you dont know how sad i was when you refused to do smth for me.

and during training today. i felt really really sad and whatever you call it and i reallywanted to confront you and ask. ha but i dont get the courage to. the middle row really hurts me alot. k fine dont think abt it.

bused home with wenxin and shermin(?) came up the bus. . . . . . .
reached ws. sent ws to ws and then i went to the town park there to have dinner with mom and sis.
bleedy cold ok. walked home, like 2 mins?
bathed and steamed mantou to eat and here i am, blogging. or rather complaining.
erm not exactly complaining but...............spilling out? heh.
ok i gtg alr i needa pack bag and sleep. dont think so much.